🌷T U L I P S 🌷 . "Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special." 🗨 Regina Brett . ❤ Buy yourself flowers, just because they're beautiful and you deserve beautiful things ❤ . ~ Make Today Special . . . . #flowers #treatyoself #tulips #tulipseason #beautiful #todayisspecial #loveyourself #selflove #positivityinspires #everydayisbeautiful
And here is a photo of the last time I bought myself flowers:
The date? April 8th, 2011.
SEVEN YEARS AGO.
Granted, I’ve received flowers since then. But I haven’t worked up the nerve to buy them for myself in seven years.
It’s true that a lot has happened since then. My dad had passed away after battling cancer just the year prior. My beloved uncle passed away suddenly. My grandma (pau pau) passed away after a quick illness. My then-husband and I decided to renovate our house. Lost probably six figures in that terrible debacle. This ultimately led to the demise of what became a rocky marriage two years later – after a mere 6 months of finally being able to move back into our (still unfinished) “dream home”.
I met someone, and the day after a dream showed me that he was the one, I fell in love. Things moved quickly, and we moved in together, planned a baby, was slightly surprised when that happened right away, had said baby (complete with PPD), moved to a bigger rental, and finally, bought our townhome.
Plus, a whole bunch of other things that would take forever to list. Maybe in due time.
So yes, a lot has happened in my physical world – but nothing compared to the emotional toll those years have charged me. I completely lost myself time and again attempting to settle that bill.
But today, I’m done paying down that debt.
And finally, I can afford flowers again.
– Loss and Growth in the Mind’s Garden