Fake it Till You Make It

After I posted this, a friend/acquaintance of mine private messaged me. She told me my posts are inspiring, then sincerely asked whether this is really how I live and believe, or whether this is what I “want” to achieve.

I had to stop and think for a bit.

I mean, my IG posts are quite frankly part of a highlight reel (hence the duty of this blog). But every one of those posts still encapsulates my real life. It’s really how I live in the moment of that snap, regardless of whether I’m on my phone huddled on a bench freezing my butt off the rest of the time at the park (that happens, too).

Now, this post in question. What you see is the version where my husband was trying to get a cool shot of me on the play structure. But I didn’t climb up there just for the Instagram shot. Not at all. I was already up there, goofing off, before my husband caught me and whipped his camera out trying to get a candid shot.

Do I let my inner child out all the time? No, I do not. (I’d like to get to know her more, though). Did I in that moment? Yes, I did.

Do I find balance in life? HAHAHAHA. I try to. Every. Damn. Day. Did I in that moment? Yes, I did.

Do I “let go” in life? Ideally, yes; often, no. Did I in that moment? Yes, I did.

My posts aren’t me faking it through life. Nor are they the “perfect” (*ahem* faaaaake) MLM-inspired “value-driven content” that you see a lot of. Are they the whole picture though? Absolutely not. They are the squares that cannot possibly capture my triangles without leaving some bits out. And the inspirational quotes I choose? Those are meant to inspire not only others, but myself as well.

So my answer to her question was this: a combination of both. As the wise Mindy Kaling once said, “sometimes you just have to put on lip-gloss and pretend to be psyched”.

Sometimes, you will see me sporting the lip-gloss. And other times, it’s my bare lips that do all the talking.

– Read My Lips

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Just believe in yourself. Even if you don’t, pretend that you do, and at some point you will.” – Venus Williams

 

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